3/23/2009 c1 871no.peace.los.angeles
I can relate to this in a way. I like to think I've gotten better in social situations as I've grown older, and I think it's all a matter of you wanting to change. That's how I did it. I was so painfully shy as a child, and throughout school, I was always so shy, and I still am really quiet most of the time, but it's more because I'm just taking things in. Sometimes I worry about making a fool of myself, but then, everyone does at some point. I can occasionally make funny comments or whatever, but I sometimes envy those people who seem to have these amazing social skills and aren't afraid of anyone and can talk to anyone with all the confidence in the world. I can only do that with my closest friends, who only became that way after months and years of knowing each other. Or online, as you've said. But you know, I think that, as writers, we are more inclined to personalities like this, to drawing inside ourselves and not allowing our real personalities to show in public, and I'm not sure why that is. I'm trying to slowly let go and become more of who I am when I'm writing, who I am when I'm online, but it's hard, especially when the people around you aren't like you. You never want to be rejected. So yes, I can relate to this, and the only advice I have for you is to hold your head high and just take things slowly - that's the only way to make progress and become the person you want to be. :)