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2/22/2018 c10 10BrookesOphelias
are-reading this pillowbook. it’s so good. the poetry is soft,yet poignant. the prose is strong and stellar.

i have new work up after ive been gone for awhile. would you mind reviewing it, please?
11/20/2015 c20 BrookesOphelias
the writing is inexplicable. i relate to most of the feelings present and shit. yeah this makes me weak.
5/28/2015 c20 97rust phoenix
I don't know what it means either. But these are hard things to feel or to open up about, and I commend your honesty and bravery in writing this.

Sometimes I feel like a fake because I feel like my attempts weren't serious enough... I think we're often our own worst critics, and we can get so used to distorted thoughts that they become normalized and it's hard to take ourselves seriously. But it sounds like you're dealing with a lot of hard things, and I hope things get better for you. Please try to be as kind to yourself as your circumstances allow. You are a good person and you deserve kindness.
5/26/2015 c20 31drink me pretty
It means you're ill, dear. No grander meaning than that-have you tried therapy, medication? I know the only thing keeping me from attempting suicide most of the time is the fact that I take my medications religiously. Anyway, what you write about is strongly emotive to me because I can relate. I wish you well.
5/26/2015 c15 drink me pretty
I can relate to this. I'm so sorry you've had to struggle so much.
5/26/2015 c7 drink me pretty
I like the idea that we are drawn towards people whose demons match our own. It's romantic in a dark way. But it is frightening.
5/26/2015 c3 drink me pretty
We all want our flaws and disorders to be more meaningful than they are-it's a way of coping. We are all guilty.
5/26/2015 c2 drink me pretty
That last stanza really struck a chord. So true.
5/25/2015 c20 True Talker
If this is really what you have gone through and or are going through. Talk to me if you wish because in ways I can sympathize. And maybe we are supposed to help each other. I mean by you not punishing yourself and living and by me in ways doing the same.
5/25/2015 c19 True Talker
Whether this is words or something that you have gone through when my sister's ex husband at the time husband hit on me when I was living with them during a summer I ate a lot of pop tarts and put on a lot of weight in order to deter get rid of his interest.

If this is what you are and have gone through if you would like to talk I am extending my hand. Only with good intentions and it is always your choice to talk.
5/19/2015 c18 97rust phoenix
again, well said. "sometimes / it feels like you want the fun parts of me" and "once upon a time i was afraid my suffering was / the only thing that made me interesting but / at this point I know it's the opposite" are especially well-put and relatable. it's stressful to be close to others when you've internalized years of being told your feelings are boring or wrong. i hope this doesn't sound like i'm trying to make it all about me, but i've definitely struggled with hiding my emotions because i felt they were wrong and would scare others away, then having them explode out all at once because i went into a panic thinking that no one knew me at all. it's a hard tightrope to walk, and you capture the thought processes well.

i think it's okay to be self-centered sometimes - we're always taught to put others first, but your own well-being is also important. you deserve to be treated with the same consideration you show others. it means a lot to know that others care; i think everyone needs that. when you've grown up being taught that others don't care, it's a hard mindset to unlearn, and understandable to have difficulty feeling deserving of others' consideration. but it's okay to ask for what you need.
5/19/2015 c17 rust phoenix
this is written so well and has so much meaning in it. i like the different emotional tones in this collection - like you examine the same experiences from different moods and angles, and it comes together to create a very insightful and honest series of poems.
4/21/2015 c16 rust phoenix
this is well said and an important message. it's exhausting to carry that fear around.
4/20/2015 c16 True Talker
If there is a chance that this is really how you feel about things. Then please feel free to pm me and we can talk. As in when I am on here I am here for you.
4/14/2015 c15 True Talker
I don't want anyone to commit suicide. If you need to talk just pm me please? Life can get better and will based off of your own choices. You need to stay alive for it to get better...
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