Author's Note: I wrote this at the conclusion of my first Cross-Country season. For those who may need some background, Cross-Country races are usually somewhere around three miles, and in addition to the team score, you compete for individual placement.
"Season's Over"
Season's over, now
racing is finished
'till next blush of fall—
forced hills
cheering crowds
start pistol's sulphur smoke…
Now nippy Winter's down settles
on the ground
on me
flies, blown on the breath
as a figure traces
a lonely path—
up and down streets,
hills, breath puffing in white clouds
but she is
at the starting line, bounces
with anxiety
high-fives teammates, who are
competitors
announcer calls
still now
hush
just breathe
and then—crack!
off for a few meters
smells sulphur smoke from the pistol
a second, breathes it—
now it's gone.
girls pull ahead
she pulls ahead
hill coming up
not tired yet!
flat now, run like the wind
or tries, catches someone
burst of speed to pass, keep it up!
downhill now, catch a few
three glorious miles
tough race, girls start to pass
uphill, too steep!
push it—wills the legs
crests the hill!
the exertion catches up,
moves in a wave down
the body, legs turn to ice
and next runner is twenty ahead
three miserable miles
She turns now
new road
uphill
snow, like fluffy flecks
of winter's clouds
settles softly
stops to catch one on her tongue
and now, with newly discovered
vigor, continues
up the hill
crest
and fast!
the mind shifts, images flicker and move
from the real
to the imagined;
how heady! yet improbable
and yet she is there
uphill
passes three, push to the
bottom, four more,
strung out behind half a mile
the air is
cold
crisp
lovely, as she
pushes to the last 100: and as never before
sees first ahead
kicks
fast
flying!
sprint to the finish
crowds cheer
Coach beams
herself full of triumph
winner
first place, others
strung out half a mile behind her
heady, intoxicating
and yet,
when she opens her eyes
she is only a girl
breath puffing white and too hard,
only a girl running
an abandoned gray street
under gray winter skies
as the snow swirls and falls
she is only me
she is only me