7Author's Note: Everything's mine, so steal it & I will sue. If it resembles something, I wouldn't be surprised, cuz I read a lot. (And by a lot, I don't mean a book a week. I mean two or more books a week, & LOTS of fanfiction.) I didn't purposely make anything similar, though, so don't sue me. Please. (lol) Umm… warning: the usual morbidness, like everything else I write. Suicide, mention of rape, & I think there's mention of abuse, too. Not sure, I get my stories/poetry mixed up sometimes. Review after you read! (PLEASE)
Don't Forget Me
I really don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe it's because I'm hoping –praying, really- that something will happen to stop me from what I'm about to do. Nothing is going to happen, though. I know that…
But, back to what I'm really writing about… I guess I just want the few people that I care about to know how much I care about them; the few people who care about me, I want them to know how much I appreciate them.
She paused her writing there, and sighed. She quickly glanced at the clock, and then started writing again.
Kaeli- my best friend… God, we've been through everything together, haven't we? You've helped me, you truly have. None of this is your fault, Kae- really, you have helped me! I wouldn't have lived this long, if you hadn't been there for me. Thanks for everything… it really did help, when you were there for me. And you always were there for me…
She started crying after that, but regardless of how strong the tears were coming, she forced herself to keep writing.
David- Oh, my darling David… I love you so much! I didn't want it to come to this, but I can't keep living like this. I'm not happy, Dave. I haven't been for so many years… I try, I really do, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life only half happy. You make me happy, darling, but not as happy as I should be… not as happy as I wish I was, not as happy as I could be. Even when I am happy, I'm only happy when I'm with you- when we're apart… it's hell. Don't blame yourself for any of this, dear, please. I love you…
Jacob- you're my brother, and I know we fight, but I really do love you. You've been there for me through everything- when Dad raped me and split, you were there. When Mom drank, you were there for me. Kaeli really loves you, bro. Don't let the past ruin the future for you. Hypocritical of me, I know, especially with what I'm about to do, but… you're different, really. You have a future… don't let it slip away.
Kelly- hey, sis… I love you! I never did feel like I could come to you as much as Jacob, but I suppose that's more my fault than anyone's. Thanks for being there for me when I did go to you, though… what I said to Jake goes for you to- don't let the past ruin the future. You're not Mom, you're nothing like her. No, I take that back- whatever was good in Mom and Dad, those are the parts of them that you got. You're so much better than them both, though…
Well, that list is awfully short, but those are really the only people I truly care about, the only people who have ever truly cared about me.
I've got a razorblade sitting next to this paper, and two hours before Kel & Jake come home. By now, I don't think Mom's ever coming home; it's been three days. I don't have to worry about her coming in at the wrong moment…
I really am sorry, all of you. I love you all… don't forget about me.
Love always,
Lara
She sighed, and put the pencil down. "Well, I guess this is it…" she whispered softly. She walked into the bathroom, sat down on the floor, closed her eyes, and pressed the razor down.
Author's Note: See? Told you it was morbid! :) Don't yell me, I did warn you. And it's not my fault if you didn't bother to read the first author's note, so you still can't yell! Ha! :) Lots of love, Serena
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