This demanded to be written after I binged on Good Omens slash and Samuel Beckett's Cascando, though I wouldn't class it as fanfiction in itself, more 'inspired by'.

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FALLEN

'purity' you say
'love of God'
'mistakes unforgiven'
and I am
wallowing in the filth of it
covered in sin
covered in rage and humanity
coveting your endless
sympathy and
compassion

how do you make that?
that look
like your eyes are clean
gliding over
the hurting-each-other
and
hurting-oneself
like a fingertip over glass
only
you are the glass,
and in you is reflected
my old self
my lost self
my un-embittered
proud-of-the-world
(and yes)
my beautiful self

and there
the Hurt
the core of it
that weakens
and tears to pieces
this tissue-paper content
I was so proud of
- there
the memory

I was never like you
I was you
and now?
I'm waiting
because we are all guilty
and the Fall
comes up underfoot
before you know it

midnight, Wednesday 11th December 2002