My life is like
a box of
automatic pistols
(not chocolates)
you never know
which one's loaded.

This blank space

is me. I am non descript
(except i am fat.)
I do not stick out
(Except for my coloring)
I don't talk loud
(except when i scream)

you take it,
take the blank
it is a large blank
for a large girl
mold it
please! make me
something
a carbon copy
i dont care
justaslongasitisntme

like a grinning
dog i sit
smiling and smiling
wanting within me
to kill you in so manyways
i surrround myself to hide myself
if i smile
SMILE GODAMNIT ROSE, SMILE YOU STUPID BITCH
you cant see
the murderous glint
in my eyes

like a hunting wolf i crouch
into a position
a wolf among sheep
probably to end
like the wolf did
shot and killed.

a dogs grin
a wolves eyes
what am i
i am you..
only twisted..
a carbon copy of you
... but the ink was smeared

so maybe you'll see me agian
in the newspapers
theyll say
she listened to such bad music! she read such nasty books!
she probably hung out with the bad people! drugs! sex! rock n roll
i
am
only
you.