Randomness

Those life-changing moments can be quick as a bee

Or slow as a mule in a way I could see

Those moments pass me by, from one ear then out the other

I can't comprehend why these things were a bother

All the sense I could make was distortedly jumbled

My mind isn't working when I thought it just mumbled

Digging for answers, I had struck a dead end

It's too complicated; my brain started to bend

Confusing it became, I was littered with 'why's

Traveling in roads when I lie down with sighs

As I closed my black eyes, I made myself wonder

"Is it just me or is my whole life a blunder?"

I looked back the times when all was so clear

Fondly I recalled, I had no other fear

Life could have started with a different me

First could be last and I could be a parody

As I dwindled into nothing, things began to shatter

When I see light or death, I would have chosen the latter

But one moment rushed back to me and whispered in my ear

"The light is truth, it is your life, erase your darkest fear."

Then another arrived and hissed hauntingly at the other

"Leave him alone for his sin is my brother."

Two choices were before me, but it was no choice at all

I took my thoughts and molded them as time began to stall

"Here, take my thoughts," I said to them, "Believe in what you wish."

"But you'll never know what I can do!" I shouted with a swish

My body swirled in blurriness; my mind was about to fade

I have break this wrong, I thought and destroyed my old charade

Darkness I saw, frightful I woke

I was still in my room so my dreams were a yoke

I said quietly when my world was a mess

"I guess life can't handle my own randomness."

~ DigiDayDreamer