Why don't I have the courage I need to deal with life? Why can't I express myself to the person I care about? Why can't I keep myself calm as I need to to deal with the incredible hardships brought on by knowing such troubled people?
Why do I feel such an urge to kill myself, get out of everyone's way and only hurt a few people in the process? Why don't I just kill myself? Honestly. I wouldnt' bother the people who call me a bitch anymore.
Why don't I have the courage to even do that?
Why can't I cry?...