4© 2003 Hailey Gaida; Anarchy Star
I wait. Wait for the longing
Inside
Of me to be subdued.
It will never be that way
Though
I will never be fulfilled.
Clean. That's what I've been.
Clean.
I don't want to stay clean.
I want the blood to run.
See
The Crimson kisses upon my skin.
The droplets of red.
Red.
The color of life.
Red. Red.
The color of Death.
The color I wish to be.
Covered in it.
Death.
Red. Color.
Slicing. Bleeding
I need to have it.
I need to feel that pain that
Sends me to another world
Different.
Different pain. Beautiful Pain.