Beautiful Pain
© 2003 Hailey Gaida; Anarchy Star

I wait. Wait for the longing
Inside
Of me to be subdued.

It will never be that way
Though
I will never be fulfilled.

Clean. That's what I've been.
Clean.
I don't want to stay clean.

I want the blood to run.
See
The Crimson kisses upon my skin.

The droplets of red.
Red.
The color of life.

Red. Red.
The color of Death.
The color I wish to be.

Covered in it.
Death.
Red. Color.

Slicing. Bleeding
I need to have it.
I need to feel that pain that

Sends me to another world
Different.
Different pain. Beautiful Pain.