i'm awake
hold the threats in
because i've just forced myself
out of bed
wipe the sleep out of my eyes
and swallow my tears at having found i'm still alive
because a world that despises me
feels i should join its people
and its merciless day
filled to bursting with heat and irritation
but its night
oh its night is cursed
with beauty
frightening beauty that threatens to stifle me fiercely
on my floor of failure
that i just can't seem to find my way off of