3Hi at all who've found their way through the huge poem jungle to this little work of mine. In my opinion this is the best thing I've ever written because I've got a new writing-technique: Every time I felt totally desperate, lonely and the pressure in my eyes became unbearable I wrote the next part of the poem. Finally, when I thought, "Okay, that's enough now," I just wrote the stuff down and arrange it a little. That's the result.
Enjoy.
Silent love
inttro
So useful
With every drop it fades a little,
Emotional abuse
Shower
It feels right
Warmth
Not felt for a long time
Soft touches on my skin
For the love I don't get
It soothes the harm the world does to me
Water
Blue like my mood is,
Sealing my inner wounds,
The line of thrusts across my soul
outer
My wet hair feels like silk,
Stroking my sore hands
My eyes are hurting,
Cried too much the days ago
Hard to leave them open
My lips are shivering,
Wanting to scream of sorrow
The heat makes me pant,
With every breath relieving
inner
The single exception
When I don't need to defend myself
No masks,
Pure nudity
I can let myself go
One square metre
Unreal
A place of this safety
Never felt more protected than here
A place of this calm
Never felt more carefree than here
Able to be myself
Real
Thank God it is
I'd be lost without it
I need no-one to trust
I tell the water
No words
It listens without comment
No interruptions
fade out
It knows what I fear,
What I fear in this world with all its evilness
It knows what I think
What I think about this unthankful life
It knows why I'm lonely
What even I don't know
It knows my soul
It knows every little spot in my soul
That even I don't know
It knows everything going on deep inside of me
It won't betray me
It won't tell others
It's entirely trustworthy
It's the most perfect character someone can have
Almost not human
I know it loves me
It loves me more than anyone ever will
It kisses my naked skin
Making me shudder
With every drop it kisses
Like no-one else does
It shows that it cares
No-one has ever showed
outro
I'm going to endure this
No giving-up
I can't stay for eternity
Soon I'll have to leave my world
Go back into the other world
But I'll come back for sure
To retire,
To be loved,
To be happy.