4No one knows the difference
Only I can taste
The distinct flavors
Of the salt of my eyes
Contrasted with the cold
Salt of the water
Washing over my salty skin
Wash it all away
If I could
If I would
Would you notice?
No
I'd look the same outside
But inside
Maybe more stable
'Little less prone
My heart on a stake
Impaling my lungs
So I can't breath
But I feel too much
And fester
In my open wounds
Of emotional saturation
My number is up
Still playing my hand
Chips are down
Table's cold
I'm burning up
But playin' it cool
Tumultuous innards
Pummel and push
To be liberated
From their cage
Of my cool exterior
Alone
I rant and curse
I scream silently
I cry
In heaves
And convulsions
My breathing
Becomes sobbing
Can't stop
Can't let it go
Stranded
In the purgatory
Of my heavenly front
And internal Hades
Fear grips me
Motivates me
Binds me
Hope lifts me
Drifts me
And drops me
At the edge
Of what?
Of nothing
Of everything
Of me
My foot in the water
I taste the salt
Steel my heart
Dive in
Feel emotions
Flowing in water
In me
Through me
And out
God, out!
Free
Steel melted
Cage broken
I'm down
I'm up
Drowning
Breathing
Living
At last.