10So much to fear,
Yet I must be fearless.
So many troubles,
Yet I must be strong.
There's so much going on with me.
I'm not sure I can take much more.
My world is crashing down around me,
But no one gives a damn.
I get the looks of pity
And promises of prayer.
Others tell me, "It'll be okay,"
But how do they know?
Do they walk in my shoes?
Do they know how much this hurts?
Do they cry themselves to sleep in fear?
Do they feel the shame?
They don't know what it's like to be me!
So young and on my own.
No one to help me.
No where to fall.
They can give me pity, but that won't feed me.
They can give me prayers, but that won't pay the bills.
They can offer reassurance,
But will that make it go away?
Is there anything out there who can help?
Can it take away my fear?
Can it take away my pain?
Dear God, have I lost my mind?!
They say put my trust in You.
You will make it right.
You will carry my burden.
But why do I still feel this way?
I trust in You to help me
As You have so far.
If it weren't for You, Dear God,
Would I have ever gotten here?
But no mater how much I pray,
I still cry at night.
I'm still afraid.
What am I doing wrong?
I cry because nothing's certian.
I cry because I know no love.
I cry for the children of the future
I may never have.
Someone told me worry was a sin.
I guess I'm hell-bound.
But I am only human.
Worry is in my nature.
I worry because I care so much
And I want things to be alright.
But if worry is a sin,
What does that say for caring?
"The road to hell is paved with good intentions."
I told you I was fucked.
No matter what I do now,
I'm on my way to hell.
May as well end it all,
Save the job a few more dollars.
May as well kill me now,
Save you all the trouble.
I can't go on much longer,
So step aside and let me break.
It was bound to happen anyway.
There's nothing you can do.
Nothing I do is ever right
In the eyes of man nor God.
Guess my old man was right:
I'm nothing but a fuck-up.
So I'll take this bottle of pills
And down 'em with some tea
Before I lay down to die.
Don't bother to set the alarm.