I'm NOT Who You See Before You

By Sun Cloud

I walk to school

I'm silent; I'm watching

The real me

My friends look at me

They wonder what's wrong

They ask; I just smile

I've slipped my mask on

Again

I switch to another topic

I laugh; they think I'm hyper

Maybe I am; Maybe not

I've slipped on my mask

countless time; I don't

know which is my true

self; Who is it?

Each time I laugh

Each time I speak of things

I'm adding a new layer to my mask

With my paintbrush

My friends laugh with my mask

They think it's the true me

It's not! I feel like yelling at them

But I don't.

Why? I don't know, but maybe it's just with my diguise

Or it's because I'm a coward

Afraid that they will leave me and

I will be alone again

How long will this go on? I feel like yelling

A long time; then we'll drift apart

Going on with our lives

We'll just remember a shadow

What would me friends think when I pop in their heads?

Probably: hyper, cheerful, happy

Or maybe: Happy-go-lucky, hyper with life; helpful

I'm NOT! When can I show them

My face beneath my mask

They're not ready; If I show them,

they will not turn away,

and pretend we have never met

I would be lonelier than ever,

and there's the voice that screams

I told you so! I told you so!

That's why I will wait

Wait an eternity.

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Sun Cloud: One thing: All of the things I publish is true. Ignore my babblings. Review.