Running
By: Ashlee
February 27, 2003

There are things I need to tell you
Things I probably should
I don't know how to say them
Don't know if I ever could
The words are so easy, the ramifications far reaching
I never told you, morals always preventing
And all awhile we felt the same, just didn't acknowledge it
It hurt a lot, knowing that it was her you would turn to
But I never had the courage to speak up
To speak out and say who I belonged to
Now I know it's to late, but the words they haunt me
I still haven't said them, don't know if I can
Three simple words, might be best if I ran
Can you run from yourself? I sure have tried
Don't get very far, since the hurts inside
Maybe I should just say it, get it out in the air
Even if you don't like it, at least I'll know it's out there
Not in me, not in the back of my mind
Three simple words, who thought it they could be so unkind?
Three simple words that I should just spit out
I love you, there does that count?
Does it mean anything to you? Do you even care?
Or is it her that you love? Did anything we felt ever matter?
Or was it all in my head, just wishful thinking?
I wish you would confirm or deny, anything but ignore me
I think I might die.
I write and I prey for a response, but all I get is dead air
Are you even there?
Even in saying it now, the words don't mean much
I love you means nothing if I can't feel your touch
See a response in your eyes, see that you feel it to
You may not admit it, but I believe it was there
And maybe someday we can admit it when we're both there.
Until then, the silence is to unbecoming
I think I'll just ignore it, just keep on running.