10I must have stood there for hours. The room darkened and I am sure as I was standing there the sun rose. A door squeaks, the first noise I hear since Joey's voice from what seemed like so long ago.
"Hey," the same voice, " Are you alright, have you been standing there all night?"
I didn't move, I couldn't move. Nothing seemed real.
"Hey?" he sounded very concerned; still I remained immobile. Then out of nowhere my feet headed to the door.
"Where are you going?" the voice was bewildered.
Without answering I left. It was if I was a zombie. I didn't know where I was going, just wherever my feet took me.
Cars swerved as I made my way to the unknown destination.
Finally I was there. It was the park. The same one I first reunited with Darrel at. I walked down a pathway in the garden. This used to be my favorite place. Filled with beautiful flowers and a couple of trees. The scents were luscious. The colors were vibrant. What isn't to love about it? That's what. A boy passed out on one of the benches. Hold on, that boy was Darrel. I rushed over and shook his shoulder.
"Let me skip school today mom." He grumbled.
"There is no school today. You are at the park, you must've ran here after you left the house and fell asleep on the bench."
"What? Lee! Oh I'm sorry again. I've been making so bad decisions lately. But I think I can tell you now what I did. You were right. I did get drunk, very drunk. I remember that guy, your sister's boyfriend. You must hate me since I know what happened yet still made a similar mistake."
"You didn't touch me." I was hesitant, he was going to tell me, but maybe that would mess things up. Lying to protect can be easier, but I know that he'll tell the blunt truth. Do I want to hear it? Yes.
"I know, but- I'm sorry no I don't think I can tell you. You really don't want to know. I can't lie to you, but I can't seem to be able to get the truth out pass my mouth about this."
"Are you sure?" I just told myself I wanted to hear, and now he's telling me I don't.
"Yes, I wish I wasn't, but maybe if you guess it I'll tell you if you are right by looking ashamed."
"You don't know what is going through my head, it's probably worse than what you actually did." Ran though my mind, but didn't say it aloud. I don't think I want to pressure him into telling me. Really, I don't even think I want to know; I would rather be lied to.
"I can't guess." I told him.
"Okay then you realize you probably won't find out."
"Yes, but I'm going to try to be okay with that."
"Thanks." He smiled.
By now I was sitting next to him on the bench. I looked around the place; it was still alluring. No wonder I used to enjoy it so much. It offered feelings of serenity. How a place can make you feel at peace is astounding and this is one of those few places capable of that ability. We sat there together relaxing in the harmony it presented. The sun was shinning in the sky, the way it should be in the summertime. There was no trace threatening rain clouds unlike yesterday. After a while we decided to get something to eat. Neither of us had eaten dinner or breakfast and it being lunchtime we were famished. When we got back to the house Joey seemed surprised to see us together and fine.
The night went by with no problems thankfully and all three of us watched a late night movie and then departed and went to their beds. As I was about to drift away to sleep the cat ran across the room when a sound of something breaking filled my ears. I got up. It was just a tiffany lamp it knocked over; I'd get in the morning. No worries finally, and I drifted off to sleep. I wonder what dreams I might have tonight? It was a long morning.