A/N: I fell in love with the King's Singers' version of And So It Goes...so here's a songfic to it. I believe Billy Joel also has a rendition of it.

In every heart there is a room,
A sanctuary safe and strong,
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along…

"I didn't plan on breaking your heart you know," he said. I glared at him.
"Don't give yourself so much credit," I snapped.
"Come on," he said softly. "Don't do this. We both know it was wasn't meant to be."
I could bring myself to meet his eyes. This was Andre. This was me. This was us. Or the ending of us, I should say. After two months together, he had found someone new. Katy.
"You aren't breaking my heart," I insisted once again. He looked at me strangely. "It takes more than cheating to break this girl's heart."
"Does it?" he asked, a smirk playing on his lips.
"It does," I answered.

I spoke to you in cautious tones.
You answered me with no pretense.
And still I feel I said too much.
My silence is my self-defense…

"Why?" I asked simply, still not meeting his eyes.
"I want her," he said bluntly.
I said nothing. I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing how much he was ripping me up inside. If I opened my mouth, I would lose it.

And every time I've held a rose,
It seems I only felt the thorns.
And so it goes, and so it goes,
And so will you soon I suppose…

I drove around in circles a lot that day, thinking of Andre. Just when it seemed that everything was going good, I had to go and introduce him to Katy.


But if my silence made you leave,
Then that would be my worst mistake.
So I will share this room with you,
And you can have this heart to break…

I had noticed him looking at her in the same way he once looked at me. I saw her looking at him the same way she looked at her boyfriend. But I looked past it, said nothing, which was probably when it all went wrong. I opened up even more to him, probably a last ditch attempt to keep him around as long as I could.

And this is why my eyes are closed;
It's just as well for all I've seen.
And so it goes, and so it goes,
And you're the only one who knows…

I didn't sleep that night at all. I stayed flat on my back staring at the ceiling until the sun began streaming in through the curtains.
"Don't let him do this to you," I told my reflection in the mirror as I sat up. I saw the black circles under my eyes, the pale skin…I looked eerily old as I stared at myself in the glass. "You're better than him. You're the better person."
I got up. I threw on a pair of jeans and a tattered sweatshirt from the thrift store. I threw my hair in a ponytail and didn't put on any makeup. I wanted him to see what he had caused. I got in my car.
I drove.

So I would choose to be with you,
That's if the choice were mine to make.
But you can make decisions too,
And you can have this heart to break...

It's like he was waiting for me. He was sitting on the front porch when I pulled up. As I walked slowly up the sidewalk, I saw the expression of shock on his face. Good, I thought to myself. Let him be shocked. Let him be scared. Just let him.
"Look-" he began to say. I held up my hand and stopped him. I shook my head.
"Don't," I said. "Just don't."
"I swear I didn't mean for this to happen," he said weakly, finally standing up.
"Andre."
I said it quietly. I met his eyes and held his gaze for the first time in two days. He nodded. He held out his arms and I walked into them. We hugged tightly, briefly. Then he turned around and walked inside his house. I walked to my car and got inside, started it, drove off. Never once did I look back. I just brushed the first and last tears from my face and kept on driving.

And so it goes, and so it goes,
And you're the only one who knows…