My head is pounding full and fast
My rapid heartbeat does not last
My soul is screaming to be saved
The road to death is nearly paved
No one comes to aid my mind
I feel the cold sneak from behind
It grabs my throat and blurs my eyes
It took too long to realize
I never really wanted this
I only hoped I would be missed
I was so desperate for love
Didn't know what I was thinking of
So lost when people tried to find me
Put all happiness behind me
Focused on darkness instead
Let it creep into my head
Black clouds swirl around me now
I know it happened but don't know how
I enclosed myself in mist each day
Pulled until I slipped away
Somehow I asked the dark to come
Somehow told it I'd succumb
I didn't mean to shield myself
Put my emotions on a shelf
I left them there to wilt and die
I never had them because I didn't try
I couldn't see what I couldn't reach
Didn't use the lessons I tried to teach
Now the darkness closes in
If you let go, you'll never win