It draws me in

pulling like iron fillings

to a magnet.

It is all come undone.

All the schemes, all the mind tricks used

to keep it all together has fallen apart.

Yet my face is calm;

though my life has collapsed like a house of cards

I won't give myself the right to cry.

Shock embraces me on all sides

like a thousand alarms going off at once.

Once I was lost,

now I am found.

I step out of the water,

laughing though my soaked clothes

make me look like a bag lady.

Laughing because I am alive again.