3I sit outside when it's not cold
And stare up into the sky
Matching stars with people I love
Thinking about you and wondering why
Why we met to begin with
Why we spoke at all
Why we ever became friends
And why we lost it all
Once a stranger to my heart
Then moved slowly into place
Then panicking and moving out
Leaving a nasty empty space
Once open and understanding
Smiled, was carefree
Soon shut yourself away
In the dark where I couldn't see
Pushed me away with ugly force
Made your feelings known
If I wanted to be happy
I'd have to do it on my own
Heard a song the other day
That made me think of you
She was asking why she'd been hurt
I've wondered that one too
Do you deliberately take a swing?
Knowing how to cause me pain
Does it bring you guilt at all?
Or does it bring some gain
I can close my eyes and think back
Things were happier, easier then it's true
How I miss those times
How much more do I miss you
Good God I miss the smile
The semi caring macho things you'd say
God you know you're special
And I miss you a helluva alot today