101Reality
I was starting to think I should've tried out for the track.I was running around so much lately.
I made my way to Evan's house, since it seemed to be the right place to go. Only he knew about my problems, about my emotions. Only he would understand this. Only he could understand this.
I walked up his steps hurriedly, and knocked on the door. I didn't hear anything until five minutes later, when I finally heard the unlocking of the door. It seemed to have taken hours.
When I saw Evan, I was confused. What happened? What happened to that perfect completion, or that beautiful smile? It looked as if his life were sucked out of him.
"Evan?"
"Hey Alex."
"What's going on?"
"Nothing. Everything is good."
"I know when things aren't good, and they aren't good right now."
"No, they are great! Perfect!"
"What is going on?"
"Why don't you come inside?"
I stepped through his front door, and went into the living room. I sat down on the couch, and a minute later, he joined me.
We sat there looking into each other. I could see something different inside of him, the eyes I saw couldn't have been Evan's. They just couldn't.
Suddenly, there were tears appearing in his eyes. They quickly rolled down his cheek. He wiped them away. "Alex."
I laid him down onto the couch, and laid down next to him. I held him tightly to me, as if to never let go. I would never let go of him, ever.
"I can't see you anymore." He said quietly.
"What are you talking about?"
"I can't."
"Explain, please."
"We shouldn't even be doing this." He made no attempt to stop.
"Listen, we can get through anything together. Anything."
"No Alex, we can't."
"Then tell me what we can't get through."
"Do you think you can still go out with me, if I'm half way around the world?"
"WHAT?" I looked at him. I looked straight at him. This couldn't be happening to me. This couldn't. How, how could Evan, be half way around the world? How could he just suddenly leave me? When I was in need of him most. When I broke up with someone else to be with him, and him only, he was going to leave me. Just leave me.
"Alex, I love you, but that won't stop my parents."
"They are making you do this?"
"Yeah. Why the hell would I go to China?"
"So, that's where you're going?"
"Yeah. China."
I put my head down on his chest, and started crying. I couldn't prevent him from leaving. My wall was going to collapse. Everything around me will be able to sink in, and I won't have a wall to depend on anymore.
"I'd do anything to stay here with you. You know that."
I nodded.
The night passed by like a dream. All we did was lay on his couch and stay together. We kept looking to each other, reading the others' mind. It was a night I would never forget.
When the first shimmer of light past through the window, I finally let go of Evan. I got up, and sat in front of the window, glancing toward the sun. It seemed to be a little darker this morning, as if it felt as we did.
After a minute, Evan also got up from the couch, and sat behind me, hugging me.
"I love you," he murmured into my ear.
I turned my head to look at him, and gently kissed his tender lips. I turned back around and watched as the dull sun rose into the sky.
After the sun had fully risen, I told Evan I needed some time to think by myself. He, as always, understood, and walked me to the end of the street. We agreed to have a little farewell party the next day, and I left.
My walk was peaceful, but it was reality suddenly hitting me that wasn't.
My dad's car was still parked on the driveway.