Musings
~ 09/08/02a skyline made of hanging trees beneath yellow metal and wire -
humanity in its glory framed there in the powder blue sky
in the warm caress of a daytime breeze
serenaded by the numbing hum of petulant bumble bees
and the mechanical clink of car engines -
a deep breath of those fumes - a day like this
makes you want to sleep
for it lulls you with false beliefs of peace -
tranquillity achieved on a neon blue park bench
(they should advertise it)
oh, to be so naive as to believe in the power
of humanity
as a
whole
and not
individually
I don't want to be fragmented anymore -
wouldn't that be beauty in and of itself
I see my senses slowly suppressed
(funny that I should recognize blindness beyond my own conceited prejudice)
beneath cynicism
why am I not stronger
as to resist the taming hand
that seeks to collar me and
make me heel
I am not an object anymore
to drown in a world not of my own
(or so I would delude myself)
with ideas of nobility to patch
up the frayed remains of pride
in an attempt not to tatter the cloak of confidence too much
I purchased it at a discount price
you have got to love illusions
and the powers of self-deception they inspire -
heart in my palm instead of in my soul
oh, what a beautiful life
beneath a skyline of weeping willows and yellow metal