I realized I loved you late one night, lying in a stranger's bed, listening to a Stevie Nicks tune.
"I turned around and the water was closing all around, like a glove. Like the love that had finally, finally found me. And I knew in the crystalline knowledge of you. Drove me through the mountains, through the crystal like and clear water fountains. Drove me like a magnet to the sea, to the sea, to the sea."
Which is where you are and where I am not.
"And I have changed, oh but you, you remain ageless."
In my memory you remain perfect. Your image rests in the hallowed ground of my mind and only comes out to play when dreams are upon me.
My love for you has been hidden under layers of fear and pain. Fear of rejection. Pain from regret.
I suppose we could have had each other anytime we wanted. But fortune and circumstance have forced us away from each other.
I'm aware that you do love me. Though probably not the way I want you to, but you do. And that thought alone comforts me.
You need only say the word and I will turn my heart away from those that would conspire to steal it. I will wait for you determined and forever at the simplest nod from your golden crown.
But should you desire my heart a playground for others to waltz upon as they would, I would not feign to turn away from you a final time. At a word I will bury my love for you as I have for so long.
I thank you, for awakening the furthest depths of my emotion whether or not it was your intention. You are a true and honest soul, even to a point of detriment. But it is that honesty that first attracted me to you.
With all the love and joy of my heart I sing unto you Stephen.
In light and laughter, in dark and mischief,
May 27, 2001