Lost

This maelstrom is so unkind,
Wandering aimlessly,
Amidst these darkened skies.
Lost.

I have no cause,
There is no sense of being here,
No sense of worth,
No sense of who I am.

Existence is fleeting,
Will you remember me when I'm gone?
You see something in me worth redeeming,
Something that I can't because I'm blinded by my inadequacy.

Speak these infidelities,
I will believe them,
Strike me down,
I will endure it.

Unsure of what to do next,
I sit and bid my time,
I shall hesitate,
Hesitate until everything is lost.

Gone and alone,
Wipe me from the very tapestry of time,
Unravel the thread that is me so that everything will be undone,
Annihilate my soul so that the pain may cease.

Maybe then everything can slowly come back together,
The way it was to be intended,
Forget you ever knew that I existed,
For I am too far gone to be found.