laying(?) in the grass
the middle of time
everything quiet
placid
yet so calming
instead of boring
and then I wake

and I find I'm awake
sinking
staring up at the black surface
of eternal suffering
and looking into the face of death
seeing him laugh
run away from me
and refuse to relieve me
of my burden
and I wake

last night I gazed into the
face of God
i asked him "why?"
"Why am I punished so?"
I gazed into hollow black
eyes
until I realized

I was gazing at you