Written on 10/9/03
What I should know.
What I should feel.
These are the things that are out of my control.
Other people control these things for me.
Should it be this way?
Shouldn't I be able to control them myself?
The thing is that
It's not that way.
I don't feel as if I can control these things.
And when I am able to
They are miracles.
Miracles to me,
Usual things to you.
And when these miracles happen,
It's a beautiful thing.