You laugh

You think it's funny

You think it's some kind of game

I'm glad

You find amusement

In my self-inflicted pain

I hope

You never feel this

That you never feel this shame

But 'til

You come to know it

You will never understand

And you

Don't want to try to

You won't even fake interest

But I

I understand that

It's not your dreams that are messed

It must

Be so hard for you

To try to deal with me

But I

Wish that maybe once

You'll open your eyes and see

I'm not what you think I am.