This is not a twisted metaphor, I really am truly happy

No teenage angst today

No depression

No complaints to nothing

This is not a twisted metaphor

Because if you listen to me at all

Then you've heard it all before

I'm disappointed in the world

There's so much I despise

You can feel the hatred in my hands

And see the sadness in my eyes.

But I don't want to talk about that today

I want to think of what I've got

I want to say thank you

Because I know I have such a lot

I don't want to tell you what's gone wrong

Or what makes me sad

Because that'll all pass soon

Things always do

Instead I want to tell you…

I am happy

I am thankful

I have so much to smile for

I am happy

I am thankful

I want to tell you something you haven't heard before

My nephew is beautiful

I'd give my life for him

His mum and dad keep their chins up

And I know they'll never throw the towel in

My brother is so inspirational

Never tries to be any thing he's not

I look up to him till it hurts my neck

And he's taught me such a lot

My mum gives me as much as she can

Though I know she finds life real tough

I know she struggles but she tries her best

And to me that'll always be enough

My dad doesn't have much to do with me

But when he's here I know

Just by looking in his eyes, he's proud

And he loves me, and he'll never let me go

My best friend is fantastic

He's kind and he loves me

I know he'll always be there

And support me in what ever I want to be

I have a horse who I break my back for

He makes me work, he makes me strong

I know that together we'll live my dreams

He shows me where I belong

And all the rest of my family,

So far away

And yet so close

They are the ones I should thank the most

I miss them all

I love them all

I want to be with them when they're high

And when the fall

My grandmas and my granddad

My aunts and my uncles

My cousins

Christmas time, just once a year

That's the happy time when I can hold them dear

I don't want to tell you whom I've lost in my past

I don't want to tell you about relationships and how they never last

I don't want to tell you that no one dries my tears

I don't want to tell you that all alone I face my fears

Because I've wrote it all before

I've told you it all, can say no more

You know that my family has died

You know that secretly alone I've cried

You know the feelings no one else knows

You've read through all of my lows

Because when you read my poems you read my sole

These are the feelings that make me whole

These are the things I'd never say

These are the feelings I keep away

These are the feeling I expose to a total stranger

That way no one I know will know

That way I'm free of danger

But you haven't read the whole of me

Until I can tell you about the beauty I see

Because I love my family I love my life

I love the things I can do

I love the way I know I'm loved

Even when I'm alone

I love the way that I can freeze this moment in time

Just by writing some stupid rhyme

I can freeze the love I feel

And when I look back I'll know it's real

Thank you for my nephew

Thank you for his mum and dad

Thank you for my brother

Thank you for my mum and dad

Thank you for my whole family it's to large to name

Thank you for my friends especially my best

Thank you for my horse

Thank you for the rest

Thank you for all the rest I have

Thank you for the total strangers who read my sole

Thank you for the fact I have all these things

That I've never before acknowledged

But I know they make me whole

So I know I can be depressing but that makes a good poem right?

When I feel I'm falling there's something that holds my hand tight

I think before I took it for granted, what's there to safe me

It's all the wonderful people

Who make me truly happy

I'll never relay on them

That's not me, not my style

But I just want to say I'm thank for

And make you see

We all have reasons to smile

: ) : )