18 months have I searched for you,
yet you sent me away.

18 months have I missed you.
You were my thoughts for 18 months.

Every hour of the day I would think...
Until wishing that I never thought at all.

Every hour of the day I hoped...
Until I wanted pain.
Until I ached,
For the end of 18 months.

It was 18 months that I believed
18 months of hard sobriety.