15Chapter 25
Caught in the mind of ones own reality is a danger. As I recall my experience realizing it I question if Frankie was more of a danger to herself then I was. I hope she lives, I hope she can go on and that who ever took my place can see the good and not the disappointing.
There is a council, I know now that there has to be. They are ever working to perfect the idea of a personality. I was their biggest mistake though. They were testing the limits but in the wrong direction. I know now that when helping others I was helping Frankie understand her friends. I could feel used, but I would much rather say I was the more intelligent of the two of us because I knew everything and she counted on me to tell her.
As for Chailyn there is no coming back for her like there is for me. She was an imaginary friend created and used by Frankie when needed. I'm still not sure where the idea for Chailyn came form through, it is something that I question when thinking back. Why would I even meet her if not to destroy the little girl who was always happy and could never grow up.
Kasper, I wish I could say that we staid with each other being ones another's company. But he was almost like an imaginary friend though based around someone in Frankie's reality. Maybe when it was time for me to be reborn into a new life I would meet him though I doubted it. All I had left of Kasper and his lucid brown eyes were memories. Maybe Frankie met him one night sitting outside a theater waiting for a show to start. Maybe she saw him every day for one week and never got the courage to really talk to him. Maybe she saw him sitting on the sky train and she let him get off without saying a word. There are so many possibilities that I can't pick just one.
At the end of ones story some things just have to be explained so the person listening doesn't jump to conclusions. Yes I was free, I had beaten the system within a girl's mind and though it still might not make sense to the reader it is crystal to me. It is not impossible to think my reality false, though it is depressing to think of how much it is like a picture within a picture never ending but never beginning. The on difference with me was that I figured it out. An insane vision was perfect sanity.
I know I wont live happily ever after because I am not willing to live again. Out there in the world is just too much to swim through. It's asking to be drowned .Now I swim along the currents of time with a new task. I am watcher; I see everything forwards and backwards. I am not a watcher who does anything important. I am watcher for those souls that wish to reenter the world in a better time for them. It's true that some people are born to early and others are born to late. But in the world I grew up in, the world created by Frankie life for me was not an option. It is a wonder to think that maybe you yourself are just inside another's mind, and then that person is inside another's mind. A picture within a picture never ending but never beginning.