Alone With My Thoughts
Jan-Mar 2003
All this time I've been suffering,
Telling you I'm crazy,
Maybe I wanted to be that way
Maybe I need these feelings to stay
I create best when I'm disturbed
I feel things deeply and hear things loudly
I fight with myself
But I always win proudly
Why do I scare you and why do you hide
You look at me like you don't understand
You try to explain that I'm just like you
You try to touch me but I pull away my hand
I don't want to get better
In fact I like to be alone
I feel at home in this sickness
To sadness I am prone
Sometimes I may need you
To take my mind off ME
But go away when I tell you to
If friends you want to be
You tell me I'm losing the battle
My pain is not worth the cost
I'll lose all my friends and my happiness
If all I want to be is .
alone with my thoughts