You wonder...

You wonder what it feels like
To be left alone and scared
You want to know how painful it is
To be left despaired

If you live my life
You wont have to wonder
Cause I experience pain every night
And I always feel I'm under

You ask me different questions
I give you different answers
You ask me how it feels
They feel like some Death Dancers

You ask me what I do
To ease the pain away
I tell you that I always put
A cold mask every day

I don't really want to stop it
Pain is a kind of comfort
At least I'll know I'm alive
Well, that thought makes me snort

I put a barrier for it to shield
Shield me from the world
Shield the world from me
To keep it from getting whirled

I'm a lost soul, I guess
But really I'm confused
I don't like pain, I like pain
But I'll be always bruised

You wonder what it feels like
To be left alone and scared
Well, here you are, I showed you now
The feeling of despair