It's so cold outside today
And my high heels haven't fit in years
The red paint on my nails is fading
And my mascara runs from my tears
I wait on the corner, under the streetlamp
Giving my best "I got what you want" smile
I feel his steely eyes on me
Feels like I've been put on trial
He leans over and open the car door
I slide into the passenger's seat
Bringing the smell of cigarettes and cheap wine with me
Feels good to rest my aching feet
So we drive and drive
Deep into the dark night
And I get that feeling as always
That I know what I'm doing isn't right
The dark man says nothing
Doesn't seem to like small talk
But we come to an abrupt stop
And his first words are "Walk!"
I don't know what's happening to me
This hasn't happened before
The most one's ever done to me
Is give me a couple of cold sores
I feel the rough rope around my neck
Oh my God, how could this be happening?
What am I saying? I had to give up God
All those years ago. but how is this happening!?
I wish I'd never listened to my "friend"
The one who first got me to try crack
I wish I hadn't run away
And let my heart turn black
But what would I have done instead?
My mother wasn't much better than me, I'm sure
And my father always hit my sister and I
Being in jail didn't stop him from killing her
Now I'll be with her
My sister, my best friend
I can't see, can't breathe, I'm dying now
But don't we all in the end?
"It didn't have to be this way"
I can hear his voice say
"But someone has to save you from yourself"
Slowly, slowly, I slip away