Carefree of these feelings

Perhaps I have no right to say this
Or even express this once expressed thought
But in my dreams I see it
I can love who I wish
I am not ruled by any bounds
And maybe that person will love me back
Instead of feeling disgust
Instead of trying to change me
Instead of making me as a joke
But I am not there
As I look, glancing their way
Watching laughter and smiles
I love the smiles
I wish I was with them carefree of these feelings