In reality, is she my friend?

My best friend?

Will she be there forever?

Like she promised me

I don't know

I just can't tell

It only matters how she treats me

Right?

But you

You were my best friend too

And you were always there for me

The way I should've been there for you

You always told me you loved me

No matter what

Even if I hated you

The way I said I did all the time

You knew it wasn't true

You knew it was her talking for me

Shoving words down my throat

Choking me with lies

Even then you stayed

But I felt horrible

I wanted to tell you all that time

That I loved you too

But I couldn't because then Shewould be disappointed

And I didn't want to let her down

I didn't want to leave you though

So I was torn

Between my two companions

Who had once pledged closeness to me

And each other

I strongly hate Love now

Because it was Her fault

Her fault that you two are in pieces

And I'm frayed and loose

Her fault that now I have to choose

Me, the innocent bystander

Her fault that I'm too dumb to make a decision

Her fault that I'm not going to be here

For either of you

For anyone