Time mocks my presence,
With its varied speeds.
I try to tempt fate,
And I'm tempted instead.
I'm playing the game of Life alone
And I'm still manage to lose.
I wish it were all a game
And it becomes more serious.
I tell myself not to care,
And then become enthralled.
I think it better not to speak,
And it becomes impossible to stay quiet.
I see a chance,
But what to do?
I know I'm something
But what, to whom?
I hear a call,
From which direction?
I know the answer
But to which question?
It's when I inquire,
That I get no reply.
It's when I answer myself,
That I call the most bluffs.
It's when Life is meaningless,
That I spur myself on.
I try to decide; instead
I create more choices.
I tell myself to like something
And come up with a hundred reasons not to.
I make myself work, then
I redo it again and again.
I see a way
But what to do?
I am something
But what, to whom?
I hear a call,
From which direction?
I know the answer
But to which question?
I'm confused; I know it.
I tell myself it's not the case.
I'm relaxed; I hate it.
I know I should be concerned.
I'm annoyed; I love it.
Now I can express my views.
I have a chance
But what to do?
I know I'm something
But what, to whom?
I hear a call,
From which direction.
I know the answer
To which damned question?