The Right to Exist

I despise this feeling
This feeling of being such a weak person
I need approval from others
I attain satisfaction in myself through others
It's surprising how much power I put
In everyone hands around me
That's what is making me weak

I don't want to depend on them
I need to stop my self loathing
I need to stop thinking that I'm such a bad person
And the only way I can get approval
Is through another person

I want to break off these bonds holding me
I don't want to give away my power like that
I can't let them control me

Cause what I dream of is being whole
Where I myself can stand despite any criticisms
And belief that I have a right to exist
That I matter