Different

They poked

and prodded

as I entered the world.

Different

was whispered

to my parents.

In innocence,

I was happy

with friends

who did not know.

I was cheerful

and free,

because

not even I

really knew.

When reality

drove its

red jaws

into my

naïve colored flesh,

I awoke from

a pleasant dream.

Venom spread

through my veins

and strangled the

the breath

I thought

I knew.

Different you are

they tell me.

Some curse has taken

its hold.

Different stands alone.

Different

is my name.

Why was it I

who was chosen

to be Different?

Why not

Her?

Or Him?

They are deaf

to my pleas,

my cries,

my longing,

my aching,

my yearning,

my hunger,

to know

Why?

Silence.

Different you will always

be.

I question again

and again.

What if I'm not

strong enough?

Different.

What if I'm not

brave enough?

Different.

I don't know if I

can survive the

world I live in.

Different.

Must I go through this

every heartbeat

of every day?

Hope for an answer

lets me breathe.

Still,

I do not know.