I won't admit it but it's true

How can I feel this lonely? When I have so many people in my life How can I feel such a failure? Through all my efforts and strife

How can I be this bored? When I have so much to do How am I going to find my way? How am I going to get through?

When something's bothering me I keep it all inside All the things I fear and feel I always have to hide But then I feel disserted And I feel depressed Because no one notices I've cried But if I hide my tears How will they ever know? If I keep locked inside my fears Will the loneliness ever go?

I don' know why I am so reserved Why I don't speak my mind It's strange because when it comes to writing The words are never hard to find I just can't speak aloud Explain what's in my head I want to shout it to the world But I keep it locked inside instead I don't want to look silly I don't want to cry I can't wear my heart on my sleeve That's not me, that's not I

So here they are, my feelings The ones I'll never speak Here are the thoughts The secrets that I keep

I want a cuddle I want you to be there I want you just to let me know That you will always care I want you to re assure me Encourage me and praise Say that you've been proud of me Throughout all my days Or just to say you love me Just notice when I cry Appreciate I've lost so many things That were so dear to I Don't mock when I say I'm exhausted But sympathise with me Because you recognise how hard I try How perfect I have to be

Can't you just look a bit deeper? Don't take the value of my face? Can't you see the truth is I'm so terribly lost in this place?

I may never say it But please know it's true Through all I act that's all it is And right now I just need you