Sometimes on my own
Sometimes I let my legs collapse and fall to the floor
Sometimes I feel I just can't hold my own weight any more
Sometimes I take my arms from around my self
And let the pain run free
Sometimes I cry at my mirror
Because I can't stand being me
Sometimes I stare at my phone willing it to ring
Sometimes I pull the covers over my head and say I've given in
Sometimes I close my eyes
Because I can't take the world they see
Sometimes I doubt myself so much
Who I am and what I will be
But only behind closed doors
Only on my own
You will never see me fall
I don't complain, I don't moan
I appear oblivious to who calls on my phone
I am happy, I am confident
Isn't that what you see?
And that is why alone I cry
Because you will never know me.