I won't admit it but it's true

How can I feel this lonely?
When I have so many people in my life
How can I feel such a failure?
Through all my efforts and strife
How can I be this bored?
When I have so much to do
How am I going to find my way?
How am I going to get through?
When something's bothering me
I keep it all inside
All the things I fear and feel
I always have to hide
But then I feel disserted
And I feel depressed
Because no one notices I've cried
But if I hide my tears
How will they ever know?
If I keep locked inside my fears
Will the loneliness ever go?
I don' know why I am so reserved
Why I don't speak my mind
It's strange because when it comes to writing
The words are never hard to find
I just can't speak aloud
Explain what's in my head
I want to shout it to the world
But I keep it locked inside instead
I don't want to look silly
I don't want to cry
I can't wear my heart on my sleeve
That's not me, that's not I
So here they are, my feelings
The ones I'll never speak
Here are the thoughts
The secrets that I keep
I want a cuddle
I want you to be there
I want you just to let me know
That you will always care
I want you to re assure me
Encourage me and praise
Say that you've been proud of me
Throughout all my days
Or just to say you love me
Just notice when I cry
Appreciate I've lost so many things
That were so dear to I
Don't mock when I say I'm exhausted
But sympathise with me
Because you recognise how hard I try
How perfect I have to be
Can't you just look a bit deeper?
Don't take the value of my face?
Can't you see the truth is
I'm so terribly lost in this place?
I may never say it
But please know it's true
Through all I act that's all it is
And right now I just need you