My pen desperately scratched at the page
Wanting, needing to write
I draw from my fountain of dark experiences
To create a work of my soul
People applaud my creativity
They don't understand how real this is to me
Your dark imaginary
My safe haven
No one can hurt me there
Only I can hurt myself, and god knows I have
You pretend to care
But where were you when I was screaming?
Where were you when I was passed out?
You don't understand for a second what it's like
To drag a razor down your arm
You don't know what it's like
To be numb
You can't even pretend to know what it's like
To sincerely wish you were dead
You are 'concerned' now
But where were you when I was bleeding?
Where were you when I was crying?
You send me to therapists
Wanting me to open up
So I fake for you that everything is fine
I know how badly you want this to end
So I smile for you
I've become so good at deceiving
You were there when I smiled
You were there when I laughed
But what about now?
Where are you when I'm cutting?
Where are you when I'm emptying bottle after bottle of pills?
You say I'm so important
That you love me
But you refuse to know me
You leave me alone in my darkness
Afraid to save me
You don't want the truth
You were beside me when I lied
You were with me when I promised everything was okay
While trying to hide my new scars
But where were you when I needed you most?
Where were you when I needed a hug?
Where were you when I confessed my lies to a linoleum floor?
Where were you when I was dying?
Where Were You? by slain-angel
Poetry » General Rated: M, English, Drama, Words: 315, Published: 6/22/2004
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