The Infection of my Happiness

it still haunts me
it still plagues me
the leprosy of my soul
the infection of my happiness
is there no cure?
every night it creeps closer to me
it envelops me in its gruesome claws
its grip is too powerful
i am too weak
why will it not leave me?
why won't it let me be?
have i not already paid my debt?
is it still hungry for my sanity?
there is nothing left for it to prey on
it has already taken what little belonged to me
my hope,
my happiness
please let it leave me
make the pain go away
please cast the shadow from me
let me heal
let me live again