Within my mind, a darkness lies
a brooding thought has taken hold,
of secret cobble-covered roads
I never tread by light of day;
There is a handsome joker-man
he wanders in my garden-walks
those mossy rising rings of stone
that arch above the forest way,
Upon this path at dusk I tread
through shadow-weaving murky webs
through garlands dark in haunting veil
I trace his steps 'round rotting fray,
And down into the deeping roots
down below the mighty tops
of ever-greener leafy trees
majestly sweeping down in sprays,
-That haunting height up 'round my head
no sunlight piercing those deep depths
that evanescent, fleeting light
my hands would touch it if it stayed,
But going light has disappeared
and darking man is drawing close
his ghostly hands with eerie light
so pale and cold, like ancient Fae,
And in that hall of evergreen
that gentleman with kingly eyes
of dull and somber winter reeds
-like old bones 'fore dark coves of grey,
Oh! Of the light in his white hands
that brushed mine in that passing dance
they never lingered long in touch
though heat they held, I'd feel it fade,
And here, past all things light and free,
past fragile thing, past fields of green
in mighty groves 'round halls of stone
I found a feeling full of pain;
For just as soon he'd catch my heart
he'd dance again, and let it go;
it bit down deep within this flesh
my heart too easy to betray,
This hollow, lonesome, keening flight
he played before he caught again
my soul with petty, trying games
to lead me on, to throw away,
-Until I bounded through the woods
into a castle built of stone
and barred the door, and kept him out
with iron gates to keep me caged:
And from the window high above
still far beneath the bough of trees,
I'd looked down from the treading path
-as he'd wait patiently for me.
~Abigail Lundberg, 6/22/04