This is kind of a weird chapter, I felt very violent when I wrote this, sorry and I only have I think one chapter to go and then I can start the sequel well hope you likey, and please R&R

Chapter13

I couldn't go to sleep that night. I was afraid of the dream I would have. So I just sat with Spot, he seemed so depressed. When I tried to give him a treat he just looked the other way. "I miss him too." I rubbed Spot's head and turned on the T.V. The only thing on was porn, infomercials and Nick at Nite. I settled on the Cosby Show.

I watched television until sunrise. I was too scared to fall asleep. I was afraid of what I would do to him this time. I got in my car and got Spot in the passenger seat. I went over to the Quick Zip. I picked up a cup of coffee and a Twinkie for Spot. I get in the car and try to give the Twinkie to Spot but he wont take it. "Come on Spot. Eat come on. I guess you are depressed. I'm sorry." I put the Twinkies on the dashboard and drove off.

I drove forever around in circles, I couldn't stand to be in my house. It smelled too much like roses. Anyways I need some fresh air. I stop at the park, I look at it. It was totally empty. So I took Spot's leash and took him for a walk. I was walking towards the big oak tree and Spot started to go crazy. He was wagging his tail and barking towards the bushes. "Who is that?" I haven't seen him this happy since Tristan was in my room. So I took his leash off and let him go towards. He didn't even move. He kept looking at me. I guess he wanted me to follow him. I just couldn't just in case that it was him inside the bushes. I couldn't face him. So I put Spot's leash on and walked away.

Spot was whining and whining and he was pulling so hard I had to let go. He ran towards the bushes. I went to follow him and then I remembered who was in there. So I just sat under the tree until Spot came back. I sit and let Spot have fun. I hear a rustle in the bushes and Spot came out. He had a rose in his collar. I took and kept it for Spot.

We got in the car and drove off. I wanted to go back and go into the bushes and hug Tristan, but I couldn't I would just fall in love with him and he would hurt me. If I stayed away he wouldn't... that much.

I looked over at Spot he looked more depressed than before. I guess he missed Tristan even more. I kept the rose on his collar so he could be a little happier. I tried to take it out to put it in front of him and he jerked his head away. I hated that I was doing this to Spot. I just couldn't face Tristan right now so I kept driving.

Then I came to my senses and realized I was so tired and I was driving, so I pulled in to my house. I had to face the music sooner or later. So I drive into my drive way and get out of the car. I walk up to the door and open it.

The smell of fading roses was all around me like smoke. It was choking me. So I ran up to my room and open the door, but the roses were stronger in here. I tried to get out but something held me there. I couldn't explain it. So I just slid into bed and tripped into dream world.

I am walking with him again and it went dark again. I tried to wake up because I knew what was going to happen. I couldn't though, so I just let go. He was standing on the cliff again. He had the rose and he told me he loved me. I held my hands together. I couldn't stand to see that site again. He hugged me close, then something flew out of me and pushed him. I cried over the cliff, watching him. Then I heard a ringing and someone pushed me off the cliff.

"Ring, ring," I wake up to my phone and I run to the bathroom. I puked and then the phone was still ringing. So I picked it up. "Hello?" It was total silence. "Don't call this number again!" I yell into the receiver and slammed down the phone. I knew it was him, I could sense it. I had to get off quick so I had to be like that. I had to be the opposite of how I felt.

"Ring, ring, ..." I couldn't pick it up it was too hard. Spot was barking at and wagging his tail. Then it stopped, he gave up. "Veronica, there is some one on the phone for you." My mom must have picked it up. "I'm not here!" I yell down at her and she tells him. Spot laid down and whimpered. I wanted it to be over. I wanted it done. It wouldn't be until a week was over.

The rest of the day I laid with Spot. I didn't do anything but lay there in another world with my dog. I wanted to cry I wanted to feel, but I felt nothing. It was so empty in the world I was in. Why is this doing this to me? Why can't I go out and have fun or stay in and talk to Beth? I could easily fix this, but I wouldn't. Nothing was better then what he could cause me. Or was it?

My mom was awake today. She was doing everything, she was cleaning, dusting, and vacuuming. She tried not to drink the whole day. She couldn't believe what happened to her and what she did the night before. I hated feeling sorry for her. I mean that I was the one that was slapped, but I was the one saying sorry.

My dad has been so nice to my mom lately. I guess it is better than being drunk and not there. I think my mom is kind of uncomfortable. I guess she still thinks he is with Debby. It kind of makes me uncomfortable. It would be fine if he didn't cheat on her in the first place, but the fact was he did.

For the next two days I did nothing. Then thank goodness Beth got off grounding on Wednesday. We decided to go out on the town and party. She noticed that I was depressed so she took me out to meet some guys. She picked me up at eight o' clock. I walked out tot her car and Andrew was in the back, along with Lucas. Lucas had a date with Cindy and he came along. I was the fifth wheel and I hated it.

We drive off to a club and I didn't want to go in since the last time. "Don't worry I'll stay with you Ronny. Us girls got to stick together." So I agreed to stay with Beth and Cindy. The guys just hung out with each other. To my surprise it was actually fun. Cindy was so fun and we also bumped into Isaiah and Melanie. We ordered some sodas and hung out. Then the guys came and joined us.

"Hey guys, what's up?" Andrew walked over to Beth and hugged her. "Lets go dance." He asked Beth. "I have to stay here with Veronica." I hated being a burden so I let them go. "Thank you Ronny." Beth squeezed my hand and told me to have some fun. I guess I could try.

I hung out with the rest of the pack. Lucas was being went to hang out with me when he was with his girlfriend, but it just made my stomach sick to see them being so sweet to each other. "So what happened between you and Tristan? He said he was moving to Tokyo." I shrugged my shoulders and looked at the ground. "Look just tell him that you love him and get it over with." Has Lucas been drinking. I could never do that.

"I wouldn't be able to do it." Was I actually talking to him about this? "Well he is leaving on Sunday." I wanted Lucas to stop, but I didn't want to be rude. So I just listened. "I'm sorry, but he deserves the truth and that is the truth." He was telling the truth. "I guess your right, but I'm scared at the thought of having him hurt me." He gave me a sympathetic smile and dropped the subject.

"So what happened to you the last time you came here?" Who did Cindy know about that? "Who told you about that?" Cindy shrugged and told me to tell her. "Well some guy slipped something in my drink and Lucas beat the hell out of him. That was practically." Lucas looked kind of confused. "You didn't tell me that you did that. That is so sweet." Cindy was drooling over Lucas. "What are you talking about? That wasn't me." What it had to be him. "What are you talking about it had to be you. If it wasn't then who..." Then it all came back. Exactly what happened.

It was Tristan who saved me. He was the one who beat the hell out of the guy. He was the one I confessed my love to while I was drugged. "Awe, shit." I said a little too loud. "What is the matter?" Lucas looked so puzzled. "I told him that I love you and that you saved me. No wonder he was being such a jerk about it." Lucas understood now. "Poor dude, what are you going to do?" "It's too late now, he probably never wants to talk to me." I said good bye and left.

I walk out of the club and get my cell phone out. I push in my Tristan's number. I need to talk to him. "Ring...Ring.. Ring.. I'm sorry this number has been disconnected. Check the number and try again." "Shit! I guess he disconnected it." I have no ride home. So what am I going to do? I reach into my pocket and I have about forty bucks. I guess that would be enough to get me to my house. So I hale a cab.

A cab stops in front of me and I hop in. "Take me to 8020 Maine street." He starts the car and drives toward my house. I just want to lock myself in my room for the rest of my life. I can't believe I did that to Tristan, I am such a bitch. Why didn't he tell me. I told him I love him. I bet that was so romantic. The cab driver pulls up to my house and I give him the money and get out. "Thank you!" I yell to him and walk up to my house.

I get in and call Beth's cell. I don't want to let her think I was kidnapped. So I call her cell. "Ring...ring. Hello?" "Hey Beth it's me Ronny. I'm sorry I ditched you I just had to get out of there." "It's okay, are you okay?" "I'm fine, I just wanted to call and tell you that I'm at my house. I'll talk to you later, okay?" I could hear the loud music and all the people. I am so glad I got out of there. "Okay Ronny, get some sleep and do something happy. I can't stand to see you so depressed." I didn't want her to worry so I told I would and hung up.

I walked up to my room and actually welcomed the scent of the roses, but it wasn't there. It was replaced by the smell of...Pynsol? I guess my mom cleaned up. I turn on the light and see that she had. My bed was made and she had it vacuumed. I loved that my mom wasn't drinking, but my room was personal and I didn't want to see anything that I didn't want her to see. I dropped it and dropped on my bed. Then I knew there was something missing.

"Spot!" Oh my gosh where was my dog? I didn't see him when I came in and he wasn't in my room. Please don't say that my dad let him out on accident. I bet he did. I walked down the stairs and opened the door. Then I got my shoes on and set out to find him.

"Spot where are you?!" I yell out to the night. I hear nothing so I keep preying and preying that he will show up. I looked every where, and then it hit me. He must be at the park. So I jog over there and sure enough I heard the bark I have heard a thousand times. It was Spot all right.

"Spot!" The barking stopped, I guess he heard me. Then all of a sudden I heard a twig break. "Who is there?" My legs were shaking I couldn't move. It was pitch black and I heard a twig break. This so wasn't cool. Then I relaxed as I saw Spot came up to me and licked my hand.

"Hey boy, don't ever do that again." Then I heard the same crack. "who is out here Spot? Who were you playing with?" I could hear the nervousness in my voice. Then I heard someone coming closer. I put the leash on spot and slowly stood. Then I quickly turned around punched the figure in the face. The shadow fell to the ground with a heavy thud. I ran as fast as I could and didn't stop until we got to my house.

I got in and let out a sigh of relief and ran up to my room. I opened the door and I saw a note on my pillow. I picked it up and read it.

Hey,

I let out Spot again sorry, but that one guy came by and told me he was taking spot to the park. Spot I guess didn't want to leave him. So he took him to the park. Well bye

-Dad

Well isn't that just great. The guy I punched was Tristan. Why can't I do anything right. I look at my hand and there is blood on it. I didn't notice that I hurt myself. Then I wiped the blood off and I didn't have a scratch. How did I... I punched him so herd he bled? What is wrong with me? I have to go check on him. He could still be knocked out in the park. I picked up Spot's leash and put it on him. I walk down the stairs and go out for the third time today.

It was even creepier right now. I wanted to go back into my house. I had to go check on Tristan though. He could be hurt. So I walk down the street. "Hey." Who was that? I think I was being followed. So I quickened my step. I could feel someone behind me so I tried to lose them. So I turned into an alley. That turned out to be a really bad idea.

I looked down the alleyway and there was about ten guys looking at me. "Hey honey." I turn around and there is the guy who drugged me standing right in front of me. "Back off!" He just laughed. "Hey aren't you that girl who got that guy to jump me? Yes I think you are." I started to back up. "Look I don't want any trouble, please just leave me alone." He looked at me with the scariest eyes. "Now where did we leave off? Oh yeah I remember." He starts to back be against a wall.

Spot went crazy, he bit the guy in the leg. "Awe, kill the little mutt!" One of his friends took out a gun and I heard a bang. then I heard Spot whimper. "What the fuck is your problem?" I went crazy and kicked the guy in the balls. I went to go check out Spot. I didn't get far, the guy grabbed me by the hair and slammed me against the wall. I couldn't move, I was filled with fear. "Help me!" He quickly covered my mouth. "You want to scream? well then I'll give you a new mouth." He took out a knife. I wanted to faint, but I was too scared to even do that.

He held the blade against my cheek and slid it down. I hollered out in pain. It hurt so bad, I felt the tears pour out my eyes. I was sobbing and I wanted to die. He held the blade on to the cut and was about to cut deeper when, "What the hell?" I heard one of the other guys say. I looked over at where the guy was looking and it was Tristan.

"Get out of here if you know what's good for you." As the guy says that Tristan just stays there. He stood tall and he spoke. "Let go of her." He sounded so calm. The guy drops me to the ground. I just sat there and wiped away my tears. "Hey I know you. You are the guy who hit me. Well I think it is time for payback." Tristan just stood there. The guy came at him with a knife. It still had my blood on it. as the guy was ready to swing the blade Tristan bend over and the guy flew over him. He walks over to me and helps me up. "Are you okay?" I nod and look back and see the guy coming at him. "Tristan!" Tristan turned around and kicked the guy on the side of the head. He was totally unconscious.

"Get out of Veronica! Now!" I looked over and saw the other guys take out guns and some knives. "I'm not leaving you to face these ass holes." He looks at me and pulls on my arm and pushes me out on my butt. How rude? "Go now!" I just couldn't, I wouldn't. I picked up a fairly big piece of wood stood by Tristan. "I told you to leave." I said nothing and just stood there. "I guess we can kill the both of you."

They start to come at us as the guys with the guns stayed behind ready to back them up if they had to. The first guy I quickly took out before he raised his hand to stab me. I took one hard swing and I heard and crack and he was on the floor. Another guy came up at me and he took a swing and got me in the arm. It hurt a lot, so I had to use the other arm. He swung at me and I jumped out of the way and hit him with the piece of wood and he was out cold.

I looked over to see Tristan he was taking on three guys at the same time. He was doing good, but I had nothing else to do. Then I heard a bang. One of the two guys with guns was holding up a gun. "Okay stop this right now!" They just stopped in the middle. "If you don't give up I'll shoot your girlfriend over here." Tristan stopped as he saw the gun that was pointed at my face. I looked straight at the gun and I was going to piss my paints.

I was completely silent, as I watched Tristan put his hands up. I couldn't stand the sight of it so I just closed my eyes. I can't lat this happen. Them before I knew it I grabbed the gun and turned on all the other guys. "Put down all your weapons!" I felt so scared holding a gun. In the movies they say that it makes you feel powerful. I didn't feel any of that. I looked around and they had all put down their weapons. "Now step the hell away from him and my dog!" I looked at them and they all backed towards a corner.

I ran over to Tristan and gave him the gun, but he wouldn't take it. "just take it I need to help Spot." He looked down at Spot and agreed. He pointed it at the people as I checked on Spot. He was still breathing, but he was losing blood fast. I had to get him to a veterinarian. I picked up his shaking body and walked out of the alley way.

I walked down the street in tears hoping and preying that he would be okay. "It's going to be okay." I felt his heart slow and his breathe get heavy. I start to run as a car pulls up beside me. Thank god it was Tristan. "Get in." He rushes out of his mouth, I get in before he is even done. He drives off as quickly as he can. I hope he knows where he is going.

I take in a deep breathe through my nose and all I smell is roses. I am comforted by the smell until I feel Spot to shake. I look down at him and his tail wagging lightly. He seems to be happy here. "I'm sorry," I whisper under my breathe. he doesn't seem to hear me as he looks straight at the road. "Please will you just talk to me." I was beginning to get very annoyed at him. Pretending like nothing was wrong, I wanted him to be more real not in some fantasy. "Yell at me or something, call me a bitch! just say something!" He looks straight and stops the car. "We're here." I didn't understand but when I did I rushed out of the car and into the hospital.

I kicked open the door startling the receptionist out of her magazine. She looked up at me as I rushed over to the desk. "I need help my dog got shot and he is bleeding, badly!" She takes a second to look at the dog before she yells for the doctor. I see a tall women with long brown hair run into the room. She sees spot and immediately calls for help. "Someone get this dog into intensive care." She was a bout to go when I had to ask. "Is he going to be alright." "We can only hope."

I turned around hoping and preying that Spot was okay. then I see Tristan. Somehow he got in with out being noticed and sat down in one of the chairs by the window on the right side of the room. I looked and it was raining hard. Which was kind of weird since it was the summer. I knew I shouldn't have, but I couldn't resist. So I sat next to Tristan. He was quietly reading a magazine on animal care. I think he was reading about how to get rid of worms.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He turned the page, "Tell you what?" "That you were the guy who saved me that one night the guy drugged me." He shrugged his shoulders and turned the page again. "Because." I was waiting for the rest of his sentence, but it never came. "Because, why?" He wasn't getting of that easy. "I just thought you were tired of me coming to your rescue." He turned the page and for some reason the simple sound of the page crinkle made me want to cut off my ears. I quickly grabbed the magazine so Tristan would have to pay attention to me. Then he reached over and grabbed another magazine. I grabbed it and put it out of his reach. This repeated until he was all out of magazines.

He put his head in his hands and took a deep breathe. "What do you want me to say Veronica? That I hate you. I hate you there you go!" He looked away from me as soon as he said that. "Is that how you really feel?" I ask him in the saddest tone I think he has ever heard. He just shrugs his shoulders. I am so stunned by that I stand up and walk to the other side of the room. I sat there and just looked at him.

He picked up another magazine and started to read. I couldn't believe him, he acted like it was no big deal. "Well if you hated me so much, why are you still here?" "And leave Spot with you and let him get killed, I don't think so." I was completely silent as he looked at his magazine. I wanted to slap or hug him or kiss him. I wanted to do something toward him, but I had no idea what to do. So I sat in silence listening to the crinkle of the pages as he turned them.

"Miss, I have some good news your dog is going to be okay. He just has to stay here for a week so we can take care of him." I ran up and hugged the doctor. "Thank you so much." She seemed uncomfortable so I backed off. "Thank you." Tristan thanked the doctor and I got out. I was walking down the street when Tristan offered me a ride. "No thanks, you have done enough already." I keep walking when his car drives up beside me. "What are you doing?" I ask in confusion as he keeps up with me in his car. "I don't want to have to come to your rescue again, so if you wont come in the car I'll have to follow you." 'I'm sorry I had to be such and inconvenience.' I guess if he was going to follow me any way I might as well get in and get it over with.

I get in the car and look at him and ask him something that bothered me. "how do you do that, one minute I want to pound the hell out of you and the next... I want to thank you." He does what he has been doing all night. He shrugs. "Can you please use the human language instead of moving your shoulders up and down like some stupid ass." "Sorry I didn't realize this was YOUR car, and that you were driving ME home." He gave me this sarcastic attitude like he barely even knew me. "Just because you are driving me home doesn't mean you can side step the questions I ask." He looks so frustrated. He gave a huge sigh and pulled over.

"I'm sorry I guess I over stepped the line a little." I was sorry that I made him so mad that he had to get off the road. "Here is a crazy thought, maybe the reason I make you feel that way about you is not me it is all you." I thought of that for a little while and he was right, it wasn't his fault I was going crazy. It was my own fault. "Okay I'm sorry, I guess your right." He gave me a fake astonished look and said, "Really oh my gosh are you serious." He changed back and leaned against the car door. "Tristan I'm really sorry I've been dumping all my problems on you lately." I looked over and he was staring at me as I said that. "It's not your fault. I'm sorry you have such a suck fest going on in your life." There he was again apologizing for something that I did. "Stop that okay." I looked over at him and he was getting frustrated. "What are you talking about? I'm not doing anything." "Exactly, Tristan you keep apologizing for something you didn't do. I want you to promise that you will only leave apologies for the things you do. If you keep shooting off apologies they don't mean much when they really count." Wow I sounded like a guru right there, cool. "I'm so.." I put my finger on his lips before he could finish. "Don't even finish that." He stopped and I noticed I was touching his lips. I take my finger away and hopefully he doesn't notice. "Sorry, kind of got stuck in the moment." Now I wanted to touch his lips even more, but not with my finger.

I guess he felt it too since there was an awkward silence in the air, until he started the car again. "Let's get you home." Then I remembered hitting him in the park, I wanted to apologize but I just made this big speech about not saying sorry and I would look kind of stupid if I said it out in the middle of no where. I guess I had to pay him back another way.

He arrived at my house about ten minutes later, I got out and walked around to his side. "Hey Tristan why don't you come in. I kind of feel bad for hitting you in the park." I noticed that his mouth was swelled up on one side. He was pretty banged up. He still had a little of the black eye I gave him at the party. He was still badly bruised on the cheek. Now he had a swollen lip I guess I wasn't his good luck charm.

"It depends what are your intentions?" At first I thought it was a joke, but then I looked down at Tristan and noticed he was being totally and utterly serious. "I guess to heal you." He looked straight ahead and away from me. "I don't think you can do that." With that he just drove off leaving me standing there in front of my house. I felt so cold now, he was gone and I probably would never see him again. The last thing he thought about me is that he hated me. That was even worse than him leaving forever.