Confused
I don't know what to think,

I keep thinking,
"No I just like him as a friend…"
But then out of nowhere you pop up,

Taking my very breath away,

Making me lose all senses.

I've lost all my thoughts,

All the harsh realities I've experienced.

Just the sight of you,

Makes me forget all my woes,

My sadness, my pain, my fears.

I don't know what to think….

There's nothing I can do,

All this felling I have for you.

I can't take you out of my head,

I don't understand why I feel this way.

My heart keeps aching when I see you,

I fear I'll loose you to someone else.

I don't want to loose you,

But I don't know…

How to tell you how I feel.

I can't put it into words,

My mind goes blank at the sight of you,

My mouth goes dry,

And my body, immovable.

Standing like a statue,

I watch as you pass by,

As you take the hand of another,

Another….

Another girl….

My heart is crushed,

My stomach ties itself into a billion knots,

My fears get the best of me,

The darkness swallowing me,

I am consumed by the shadows.

My fears over powering me,

Hatred consuming me.

I have lost you…

Now I don't know what to do.

It's already too late to tell you.

But my feelings for you will stay…

I may never have the chance to be with you…

Not that I ever stood a chance in the first place.

The pain in my heart worsens,

Night has dawned on me,

Alone I sit in the dark,

Consumed by the shadows,

Tears fleeing from my eyes,

As my heart cried aloud.

The next day I see you once again,

Holding the hand of the other girl,

I cannot bear the sight,

I cannot watch any longer.

As I turn my face,

Tears slowly roll down them,

I try to get away from the scene as fast as I can.

Trying to run away from my problems,

The inner hatred that has grown inside of me,

The darkness that has consumed me,

I do not know what to do anymore…

Looking for an escape from this pain,

Away from my idiotic world,

I jump out into the open air,

Flying freely down,

Onto the crashing tides that flow before me.

I land into the cold water,

Drowned in my sorrows,

As I slowly loose my consciousness,

My mind slipping away,

As I sink deeper into the water.

My eyes close slowly,

Unable to breath.