Dissociation

I'm looking through the eyes and body of a person...
A person that does stupid childish things.
I feel their emotions and everything in a swirl of confusion, guilt, fear, everything bad that a person could possibly feel, all magnified by the fact that I don't know who I am.
Guilt.
Panic.
Guilt.
Panic.
Fear.
Panic.
Guilt.
My hands aren't mine,
my eyes are like a glass wall I can see reality through, but I don't fit into it.
The mirror shows a face I know I should recognize, but don't.
Endless chants of 'who am i?' run through my head,
traumatising me,
and there's nothing i can do but stop thinking
stop thinking
stop thinking
stop thinking
stop thinking
stop thinking
stop thinking
no thoughts
it'll pass soon just stop thinking

when it happens, its like my mind splits into two people. one that wants to be rational, smart, perfect ... and one that wants to be myself. it's like the one that wants to be perfect takes over and starts yelling at the one that wants to be myself, so the one that wants to be myself starts to feel guilty, sad, afraid, everything bad. Me as a whole feels confused because I don't recognize myself, I don't know which of these to listen to, I don't know who I am.