I am so used to this pain I feel

It makes me wonder if I am still real

Reality became so distant

Feelings nothing but numb

Wanting to wake up this instant

But all my strength is now none

Some people always bug me

Others don't make a sound

When will they all see

Im too lost to ever be found

I refuse to let a tear go

I learned that crying got me no where

Even what they say is so

They don't know why im scared

As each day goes by

The clock ticking my life away

I sit down and wonder why

Is existence what they really say

Why do we all live each second

Hoping life will become something

When life just comes to an end

And everything means nothing