Do I feel happy

Or do I feel sad?

These mix of emotions

Always make me so mad.

I know I should be happy,

Elated and relieved.

That she found out about me,

But just wouldn't believe.

But then why do I

Keep feeling so bad?

Like the whole world's upon me,

Crushing, till I'm dead.

I just wish I could

Do something, anything

To pretend that it

Was nothing but a fling.

But to my dismay,

Each time I try to hate her,

I bounce back only to

Find that my love doubles for her.