Mistakes

It's so frustrating
Having to admit that I screwed up again.
I try so hard but
I keep doing those stupid things.
And it's my fault.
Again.
I try so hard
But it all blows up in my face.
And the consequences
THOSE are the worst.
Cuz I dropped the ball
And it landed
And rolled
Over everyone's toes.
And I'm not whining,
I just won't make excuses anymore.
I want to get better
I want to be more responsible
But it's not working.
So many excuses
That I could make
"Well there's so much to do"
And
"She asked me to.." blah blah blah.
But that's all that is.
Just words.
And though words can hurt
They can't fix.
The only thing that proves
"I'm sorry"
Is the action.
But the action is the hardest part,
And so frequently it's forgotten.
But I promise I'll try
My very hardest.
I'll give my all
And you'll se results
And maybe I won't be
As frustrated
And there'll be nothing to admit to
And I won't
Keep doing those stupid things
And nothing will
Be my fault
Again.